Realities

I woke up at 4:00am this morning when the inverter to our solar power system shut off. At this point, it does that early every morning because we did the classic underestimate of power consumption needs. More on solar later. It get’s it’s own post.

I spent about an hour up anyway running on our RV’s batteries with  LED lightbulbs. I had to use my phone’s hotspot because we forgot to hook up the inverter to the RV batteries so we could run a cord inside to plug the modem into.

After going back to bed and waking up about 20 minutes ago, the husband’s still asleep so I got to instruct my son again, on how to turn on the gernerator but he forgot to unplug us from the solar system and into the extension cord he plugged into the generator. We have the modem for internet over here. That was why he was so helpful.

I then had to plug the fridge back in because we’re getting a propane fridge because the electric is a gas hog and when we’re on the inverter, we turn it off for a few hours and keep the door shut.

I also checked the level of our water supply and will have to go up to the top of the property to “turn on” the water. I siphon it all the way across the property to our temporarily outside 55 gallon water tank that holds water for our trailer.

Tired yet? I’m semi used to this but when my threshold for stress is down, I break down also. Most of the time I’m OK but it takes a lot of effort to live out here. I have problems with depression and when that kicks in, it weakens my emotional immune system and makes effort difficult.

My husband is front and center to help and we make a great team but I tend to mentally take on a sense of responsibility for the load. I don’t have to. It’s just habit, I suppose. I’m trying to learn to ask for help and to know that I don’t have to do it alone but when I realize how much there is to do before the snow hits, I get overwhelmed.

I’ll show you what I mean.

To do before the snow hits:

• skirt both trailers
• replace our water tank (we found out our water tank has a massive leak after we got it home)
• seal all panels around the RV basement
• insulate all pipes and the inside of the basement
• finish foam insulating the small trailer and do the pipes
• figure out why the hot water heater is not turning off (we never called someone about that)
• return the faucet we bought when we thought the old one was broken because the hot water made it work weird
• come up with a plan to keep the outside water barrel from freezing if we can’t replace the inside water tank
• figure out how to keep the outside water filter from freezing
• figure out why the solar panels we added don’t seem to be helping
• buy more batteries for solar system
• make sure we have a heating system in place for the basement of the RV
• finish cleaning up the property
• finish the roof on the shed when the truck gets home from the shop
• pack the rest of the garbage to the dump when truck available
• finish installing miscellaneous hardware around the inside of the trailer
• finish the laundry (happy thought! I have a washer/drying combo in the trailer!!!!)
• Work on blog which has become a very happy thought to me

As I said, I suffer from depression. It’s been all of my life give or take a year or two and of course I get treatment for it but it’s especially bad right now. Luckily, I’ve discovered blogging. 🙂 I can now “talk” to people about how I feel and bitch about all of the hard work I have to do living out here.

I know this has all been a choice and I would do it again. Zero regrets. But that damned to do list…..